Random

Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?

Nope. :)


Last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for?

Umm, to make some random comment or joke most likely-- just to make me giggle.


Do you ever think about the past?

always


Do you have any plans Friday?

Not yet...they're usually last minute.


What's your favorite thing to do when you're bored?

nap


Who are the last 5 text messages from in your inbox?

Josh and Steve


What were you doing an hour ago?

Clocking in to work :)


In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?

yep


What're you wearing right now?

Jeans and a torrid tee


Who was the last person to lay in bed with you?

Josh


Have you ever kissed somebody driving?

yes


What were you doing when you found out Michael Jackson was dead?

Sleeping?


So you want to see somebody right now?

yes.


Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people?

Oh God..neither.


Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math?

Math


Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

Yes--and this time it was his fault --But it was a good cry.


Are you a forgiving person?

Honestly..not really.


What are you listening to?

Michelle talking...she's amazing.


Did anyone see your last kiss?

Just the people at the stop light.


Last people you rode in a car with?

Josh


Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

ROFL, of course


Are you nice to everyone?

No..I'm not a nice person generally.


Last movie you saw in theaters and with who?

It's been a while, but I think it was the Hangover with Deb


Where was your default taken?

UNO Mavs game.


What color are your underwear?

Blue today.


What's on your mind right now?

How much I need to go back to sleep.


What are you doing right now?

Listening to Michelle


Are you jealous of someone right now?

yup


Do you still talk to the person who hurt you most in your life?

Almost daily


When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?

Umm, I think I wrote stories or notes


How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?

Well..I think my mom went out and got one too, lol.


Is there anyone you want to come see you?

Yep :)


What are you looking forward to?

Sleeping


Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?

yes


Does it bother you when someone lies to you?

Yes.


Does the last person you kissed still like you?

yes :) I know it.


Meet anyone new this year?

yes


Have you ever tripped while walking up the stairs?

Have you met me?


Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?

Yep


What are you doing tonight?

sleeping



Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?

Sure, why not.


Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?

yup


If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?

yes


Where do you wish you were right now?

Honestly..In bed.


Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?

A few times, damn cell phone.


Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?

well, duh?


If you could go back in time and change something, would you?

Not really, I'm moving past that.


Is it easy for you to talk to people of the opposite sex?

yea


Do you think more about the past, present, or future?

all of them, mostly future


Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you too?

Yea


This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

yes


Are you highly attracted to anyone right now?

yes


Have you ever dyed your hair?

ROFL, yeah


Do you look anything like your bestfriend?

LOL, yes.


Are you in High School?

No


Do you have a favorite letter?

F


As of this minute, what is going through your mind?

Only 7 hours to go


What color is your shirt:

Grey


If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?

I'm pissed..or sleeping.


Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?

No...I don't do "ships"


Who did you last text?

Josh


How do you feel about our current president, Barack Obama?

I <3 him...so sue me.


Name something you dislike about the day you're having?

That I'm awake.


If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?

fall


Do you like when people play with your hair?

OMG, yes


Are you someone who worries too often?

I can


If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?

I'm not sure...that's an odd thought.



Do you think someone has feelings for you?

yes


Have you ever used your bra/underwear to hold things like you would a pocket?

Rofl, yep


Is any part of you sad at all?

Well, sure


Did you lay with someone last night?

Just the cat


Was your last kiss sober or drunk?

Me sober, them drunk


Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

Torrid


What is wrong with you right now?

im tired?



Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

Jeans



Where do your best friends live?

Way the crap in Iowa


Favorite color?

grey


What was the first thing you did this morning?

Shower


Who was the first person you saw this morning?

Sena and Michelle


Was yesterday fun?

OMG yes!


Last person of the opposite sex in your room?

The same one as always...



Can you sing?

i wish!


How many scars do you have?

a few


Will you be drunk in the next 24 hours?

no


What color is your bedroom door?

Wood?


Did you resolve your last big fight?

No..probably never will


What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?

Working


What are your initials?

RLG


How many kids do you want to have?

Just the ones that I do


What are you looking forward to in the next three months?

VEGAS!!


Do you usually apologize first?

yes-- and it makes me angry that I give in so easy.


Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?

yes


How many pillows are on your bed?

Right now? 5


When's the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't?

um all the time


Is there anyone who doesn't like you?

I'm sure there are.


Are you in a good mood right now?

Meh


Is there someone who has made a difference in your life?

Several


Have you ever had your heart broken?

mhm


Do you drop your phone a lot?

LOL, yeah



What color are the pants you're wearing?

Blue?


Do you love your parents?

yes


Do you drink more water or juice?

Water


Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?

a resident most likely



What is the last drink you drank?

Diet Pepsi




How long is your hair?

Shoulder ish


Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?

Tis a running joke


What is your favorite key chain on your keys?

My naked fairy


What is in your pocket?

Keys, chapstick, iPod, badge, money.


When is your birthday?

Oct 9


What's the area code for your cell phone?

402


Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher?

Didn't go to kindergarten :)


When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?

yea


What color are your eyes?

Blue


How tall are you?

5'3


Do you look more like your mom or your dad?

Mom


How long does it take you to shower?

20 minutes?


What movie do you want to see?

A few


Was your mom a cheerleader?

Doubt it


What is the last letter of your middle name?

e


How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

-9?


Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?

always


Are you scared of flying?

Just the taking off and landing part.


What do you sleep in?

Pajamas


What jewelry do you wear all the time?

Star necklace


What is your favorite song at the moment?

LOL Smiley Face


Do you like chocolate?

my favorite <3


Are you easy to get along with?

Sure

To my girls, always and forever---no matter what.

So no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too.

You're still in bed at ten, the work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees.

That, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too.

No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me.
Seems like you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me.
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with,
Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst, I'm best with you.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too

.

Everything is waiting for you...

Your great mistake is to act the drama
as if you were alone. As if life
were a progressive and cunning crime
with no witness to the tiny hidden
transgressions. To feel abandoned is to deny
the intimacy of your surroundings. Surely,
even you, at times, have felt the grand array;
the swelling presence, and the chorus, crowding
out your solo voice. You must note
the way the soap dish enables you,
or the window latch grants you freedom.
Alertness is the hidden discipline of familiarity.
The stairs are your mentor of things
to come, the doors have always been there
to frighten you and invite you,
and the tiny speaker in the phone
is your dream-ladder to divinity.

Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into
the conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.

The Single life...

There was a time In my life when There was no place
I'd rather be, Than with you,I  loved you desperately,
On my mind all the time,I gave you every kind
of love I could give,You broke my heart
I thought I'd never live.Every tear that I cried
It made me stronger(made me stronger)
An' I don't want No-one by my side.
I got myself a single life-- it's bringing me joy,
Single life.

I'm living and now I've found I don't need you
Now I'm out on my own Single life feels so right!

Thanksgiving 2009

"If you want to turn your life around, try thankfulness. It will change your life mightily." -Gerald Good



This has been a year of loss, heartache, change and endings--But
throughout it all, I can see the small things to be thankful for.

I am healthy. My kids are healthy and happy. My small family, while no
longer intact in the way that I would have hoped is still functioning.
My friends have shown the utmost of support and love. My larger family
back east is happy and healthy as well, and have shown their undying
support and have been there for me when I needed to cry, to vent, to
laugh and to just get away. I've reconnected with friends from years
ago and realized how much I missed them in my life. I've made new
friends that will be lifelong ones. I've been able to travel and see
places and people that I love and look forward to visiting again. I've
found my stride as a single person and have made a good start on
several new relationships that are healthy and happy and fun. I've
realized that I'm not looking for myself anymore--I've found me and
now, I'm taking the time to get to know me again.

Thank you all so much for being part of my life this past year. Thank
you for your support, your love, your friendship. I love you all.
Here's to many more years together.

--Becky

Truth

I don’t know. I’ll be the bigger person, I just need to be strong enough. I am strong at other things in life, believe me. My broken heart will keep on reminding me that sometimes I will miss him and sometimes I wont, but thinking of him is just a never ending force. Sincere and honest truth, there is only one person who can fix it- the one who broke it. But, it's something that he can't/won't ever fix. Not sure if I'd let him try. I'm finding that I can stand on my own, it's shaky and scary and utterly perplexing, but I can do it. Just watch.

Time told.

Well, He called... and texted. A ton. I don't think it's been more than 8 hours with out hearing from him in someway since last friday. Huh.